365 Day Challenge [1/24 - 341]

There is this habit...

... I am dealing with.

If you've done it before yourself, you understand my struggle.

Wavering in the balance of two creates my disdains of the thought of one.

...one decision over the other.

...one lifestyle over the other.

[ insert page break here. the upper half looks like a good introduction to a poem, but the bottom half, and the most recent two lines (directly below) couldn't help themselves originally from being questions, breaking the flow of the words here. I think I will just allow this to marinate for 4-5 days and come back to it as instructed by my published professor. ]

But I ask, which one is correct?

Is there a correct choice?

The questions continue to somersault through my mind, finding very little settling edges to perch on, and reminisce. Endlessly cycling through perspectives, vantage points, and understandings. That moment of distant thought where you can stare for what feels like hours on end, but hiccup as only a few moments of your life are found lost in insurmountable content of thought; whether it be by the number of thoughts you become immersed within or the variety so unique it cripples your own sense of self. Thoughts anew, sprouting from thoughts of old. Old in several different lights, yet in this moment old stands as anything not present, which stands as the new. So while new sprouts from old, old can never sprout from new - but eventually - one of these days, I will find a viable option for that phenomenon to occur. ah! Wait, I have already bested myself in thought after changing yet again another outlook on the situation. New thoughts can definitely recreate or bring to life towards old concepts and things that have invariably already been thought of before. I told you I would find an option for its end ;)

[ Incessant rambling ends here.]

Becoming the man I want to be - Today I won't bite my nails, I'll watch my tongue and be very cordial with a smile. [originally wrote this tid-bit 1/25/ and have continued to not bite my nails up until 1/27 [the second edit] and am looking forward to continuing this streak I'm on of 'no, no, no'.

I should however continue to share this streak of 'no, no, no' with nail-biting to my smoking habit. I feel as though in that world, which I cannot seem to cross the door's threshold into, life is a better place.

I think I'm going to give my other idea a shot while I try to catch up these last couple of days with some small and meaningless posts... please do not mind. There are still hundreds of days left :)