What Writer?

It is dificult for me to look back at all of the old posts, and read whatever it is I had to say at that point in time, for it was an old year of mine.

Now that I am in a year of new beginnings for myself, I must do away with all that is old - or that I feel to be outside of this curvature of - new and push forward.

So... I've decided to give up on calling myself a writer. I have never been such, and I do not think I will ever fit the typical shoe's of such. I do not see what I'll be able to call myself next, or if I wish to call myself anything other than my name for that matter -- but the time and place for that thought has yet to come. So while I have time to think and dwell on it, I will do so - outside of the paradigms aligned in my head with me and the make of a 'writer'

Writer's are seen by the majority to be bum's who have no true skill in life other than with their words and must go on limping through life looking for hand outs to live . . . at least here in America I feel as if this opinion of mine holds true. regardless, there have been many people who are successful in chasing their dream while keeping it concealed. I suppose I've been going about this thing all ass backwards then, huh?

I should stop telling everyone I'm a writer, and write.

There are almost half as many draft posts sitting on my dashboard of this blog than posts that have actually made it out onto the net.

So this will be the end of "The Writer's Mannerism" and 'the writer' will go seek himself out, in the next blog.

Representing for PSU @ Capital Day

"Students attend Penn State Capital Day"

Volunteering for Your Future - Fastweb

Blogging this Article so that I can always come back to it and be reminded how much of a difference Volunteering actually can make for myself. You should continue to volunteer, to generate more and more resume builders, and more experience in any of the fields that you are interested. Volunteering is a safe and most accepted way to enter a field and test it.

Volunteering for Your Future - Fastweb

Browse Inside 365 Tao: Daily Meditations by Ming-Dao Deng

Browse Inside 365 Tao: Daily Meditations by Ming-Dao Deng

I am doing a research project on Taoism, for my Religious Studies Class, and this is three of the first 365 Meditations. I am going to look up the book and see how much it is on amazon, or on e-bay. If I can mange to get my hands on a hard-copy of this, that will make our group look better, and hopefully push us closer towards that profound and sacred A!

The Beginning of a New Month 3/1/11

This is going to be a great month! Spring is on the horizon, finally and everyone knows that that means new, new, new! New everything! From new breathe, to new thoughts to new seasons, to new apparel, trends, habits/tendencies, you name it. Any and everything can be considered new at this point, and more often than not, at any point of our lives rather than a selected date and or time where, at the cusp of that date and/or time, everything following it will fall under the categorization of 'new'. Much to my own dismay, I feel as though people do not hold this very same outlook on the concept of new as I do. For I am a new person just seconds into writing this and at the end of it will emerge a new writer; and all of this is occurring while these thoughts form and are typed down. This sensation of new is overwhelming me because my previous two weeks were weighted down by the cumbersome antics of old-habits which have began to build a wall around me trying to stop the new me for the year of 2011 to emerge in his full being. I am only human of course and cannot in anyway possible make myself become born again tomorrow @ the same stage of developmental growth or at any stage for that matter. And of course, I still am fighting my bad habits like biting my nails, cursing, smoking, etc. but these things are a process, and the reality of life reminds me every time that fighting these things is a process as well. It consistently tests me, seeking for how I am armored against them and ways to stunt my persistence in relinquishing myself from such atrocities.

Whew! Almost got off track there for a second, but I have made my way back on towards a great golden gate of 'new-ness' that today (March 1st, of the year 2011) has shown to me. I ran into an article that included my hometown (baltimore) and so it was only natural for me to read what was being said concerning my native city. I was very thankful that it was nothing negative and even more so to find that it was also very inspiring for me! It discussed the CityLit project which is a project based in Baltimore, working towards progressing the connection of community and Literature (in short). Though the issue is old (December 2010), I had a feeling that there was something in it I was meant to come across and in a few short flips of the page I had done so. Immediately after I had read the article discussing CityLit Projects' new found relationship with the University of Baltimore, I took to the internet, and just as quickly as I picked up on the article in the magazine I was able to find a website for the CityLit Project. I read on and on, finding every nerve in my brain to be tingled by the sheer excitement that pulsated through me. The excitement was so much so, that I just couldn't wait until tomorrow morning to send out an e-mail to the Project. I am hoping that my e-mail will be responded to by the time I wake up tomorrow but also know that this is a high hope. To quell my excitement a bit I have decided to call the project tomorrow and see what information I am able to extract from them via phone. I would love to become an intern with this project since it is based in my hometown, and carries all of the same interests I have carried since birth. It is getting rather late now and I feel as though I've typed enough on this crackberry for today...replacing my lack of conversation and discussion with those of the world with this inward discussion and reflection of events that occurred over the past two hours.

Peace & Blessings,

DJ

Sent from my BlackBerry

365 Day Challenge written 2/18; posted 3/22

It has been a very long time since I've seen this blue and orange header, buttons and theme. Today I have experienced the power of my father, Alpha & Omega, Jesus Christ. I have experienced his power again, as I have experienced his power before. I have seen him move and change the lives of many right before my very eyes. After allowing him to work into my life and do as he wishes with me, I am able to see this very same thing happening in those around me. My eyes lay witness to spiritual happenings, spiritual occurrences. What many prefer to as taboo, or magic, heresy! I refer to as the power of God. I refer to it as righteousness, grace and mercy from the highest spirit, and strongest spirit of them all. I see nothing but good come of this. Good that is just so simply 'good' that the actions of this good - the reactions from this good, are just unfathomable. The reception of this good, is unquestioned.

Is there any doubt in your mind that you will not accept the gifts of God upon your life? No. To me? No. There is no doubt. I have already received everything that the Lord has given unto me in my life, has allowed me to receive and accept within my life, and the both of us, together are looking forward to adding on to each other for each of our own separate yet collaborative ends.

I am no mover of men. Only God can move men; but, God! Yes, but God can move men through me. I wish to be the instrument and the catalyst for you Lord to complete all of your wishes, and your fulfillments Father God. I beseech of you, the giver of just one task, that I may complete to feel as though I have done a great duty and task for God.

Ssshh! Silence.

I know that there is much more to add on to this. Adding on to this though, I am just going to add a very small thing. Come closer, as you need to hear this. I hope at this time you are sitting at the edge of your seat, biting your finger nails and counting your heart rate with all the anticipation and build up that is going on inside of you right now.

The duty and task that will make God the happiest, is living for him.

In Jesus name I pray, amen, and amen.

365 Day Challene [1/31 - 33?] posted 3/22

Today was my mother's birthday. That is all.